Latte’s I Love (balancing bliss and facing the truth).

I love, love, LOVE coffee. I know, so do you. Who doesn’t (probably people with a strange genetic make-up that I certainly can’t relate to. At least I try, anyways 😏). Moving forward– my first cup wasn’t during, shall we say, a delightful time in my life. It was at my paternal grandmother’s funeral.

My mamaw– I was 6 when she died. The day my mother told me was the worst day of my young life. My mom sank to her knees as she placed her hands on either side of me and told me mamaw wasn’t going to wake up. I started crying so hard it felt like I’d split a hole through my throat– I was drowning and I was on fire. I stayed on the ocean blue carpet that floored my bedroom, unflinching– on my side for hours.

I remember being in the funeral home. I remember the white sailor’s blouse I was wearing under my candy apple red, floral printed, dress. I remember walking around between rooms and admiring the old wooden furniture. In the main foyer there was an extravagant buffet table. It was decorated with wax plants and styrofoam cups (the nice kind, with waves on them). There were stir sticks in fancy glass coffee cups with swoopy handles, sugar cubes in small white bowls with little tongs for picking, and best of all, in the center, was in an enormous clawfoot silver percolator. It sat atop white paper doilies atop actual lace doilies. It was the most magnificent thing I’d ever seen.

I don’t remember who intervened– I lost time as I doe-eyed-slack-jawed floated to the black shiney handle before me.

Someone must have– because next thing I knew I was ogling sugar cubes as I added powdered cream to my white, styrofoam cup (👊). Moments later my mother came and took me by the hand. I wanted to bring my coffee but she made me set it down. I don’t remember what happened next, but I know we walked into a large room where my eyes immediately fixed on my father kneeling at the front in front of a large, shiney, I think, black box. I held my mother’s hand loosely and said nothing. We walked to the front row and sat down behind him. It was the first time I saw my father cry. He was wearing a brown sports coat– a really nice one. He was so still. He had his head on his hands and he was bowing. I can only assume was praying. When he went to rise, he began to shake– ever so slightly– and then dropped his forehead to his right hand and then he cried. My uncle Dave (or maybe Mark?) appeared by his side and helped him rise. Next to me was my great uncle Joe. He held his hanky and, he too, was crying ( I sat next to him almost 20 years later at my Pappy’s funeral — he was on my left side that time). I don’t remember my Grandfather that day.

I brought a purple brooch with me that I wanted to leave in her coffin. I don’t know why I didn’t get to leave it– but I didn’t. I found it in my coat pocket, in it’s starburst acrylic case, at some point after the service. I was devastated. It was all I could think about. I didn’t send the brooch with her. It was my final gift. How could I have been so selfish. I shouldn’t have had that coffee. I wouldn’t have upset mother and I would’ve remembered to place the brooch at her side. Did I mention I was 6 when this happened? yeah– those were my 6 year old thoughts. I’m a freak.😳😂

Her first name is my middle. I love hearing my first and then middle name called. It seldom happens, but when it does, all seems right in the moment.

Balance is an important part of life. Speaking truthfully about pain, about joy, about discomfort, and about ease, it essential to living mindfully. You can do the same thing over and over and expect stay stuck, or, you can grow and maybe learn. Eventually I had to learn sometimes certain feelings are linked to inexplicable truths. I learned that it wasn’t forgetting to place the brooch in the coffin that upset me. I had realized every time I saw the brooch I would remember her–remember she’s gone, and then get sad all over again. Eventually I had to let it go (after I threw a tempter tantrum when I learned about the invention of nicorette a few years too late–maybe then she would’ve quit! Not the case– cancer starts with more than just smoking cigarettes. Read up.) Anyways–  I’m so grateful I knew her.

So! In conclusion, learning things like, OH! I can’t have coffee every single day, doesn’t bum me out. I know it could be much, much worse. I could lose the power to choose.

I went coffee free for 30 days. It was v difficult– at first. I learned, however, to look forward to my #fatisfying morning (or late night) lattes– cause hello caffeine free lattes are a thing!

The following recipes have three elements. Full on flavor. Satisfying healthy fats. AND NO ADDED SUGAR (hallelujah)!!!

I hope you can choose one to try for when you’re feeling up down or in between. I won’t tell you exactly how to use each, I want you to think for yourself, but I will tell you the features and benefits of each beverage so you can make an informed choice.

Dairy, Nut, and Seed Milks

You’ll want a 1/3 cup rich and creamy yum, yum of your choice. I have experimented with and enjoyed using 1. Pastured whole milk 2. Organic half and half 3. Unsweetened Organic Almond (my go to) 4. Hemp (fave in a matcha latte) 5. Soy (not gonna lie, not for me today) 6. Banana Milk (it’s a thing) 7. Coconut milk (full fat, canned is my jam) and 7. Buttermilk (relax, for cooking and marinades, not lattes). I had decided almond milk is what’s best for me if I’m going to make a latte. That doesn’t mean I’ll pass on other options on any given day– it just means 1 part frothed almond milk to 3 parts hot water is how I like my lattes on the reg. Experiment– do you.


Healthy, organic fats to keep you satiated. There are dozens of options- -I’ll list a few I’ve tried, when I like to enjoy them, and why. Anytime I take in fat I try to pair it up with it’s bff –body building protein (or it’s frenemy acid– depending on what I’m doing) to help balance their corresponding effects. Here, we want them to help one another. The two playdate with your insides to deliver the nutrient dense bits to the parts  of you that need them the most (I mean, if you believe in Minding your mitochondria and shit). Yay science.

So–protein! You have Collagen Hydrolysate . It’s a universally adaptable powder. It dissolves into any liquid, at any temp, at any time. Forever on point, it’s the 2001 Britney Spears VMA performance of collagen powders. I like to use it in everything from lattes to full fat greek yogurt parfaits to amping up my P r o t e i n s m o o t h i e s and B u t t e r b r o t h, Collagen Hydrosolate is my jam.

And the skinny on F a t from two experts I’ve grown to trust (once I’ve spoken to most of wikipedia, and of course, in my dreams, this guy).

Yak milk, coconut milk, grass fed butter, MCT oil, olive oil, nut or seed butter, avocado, heavy cream, coconut meat– I could go on forever, baby. Any of them can be used as a base for adding richness and healthy, omega rich fats to lattes (not to mention dreamy, creaminess ❤ ) You’ll want to use anywhere from 1 teaspoon (a lightweight base, good for teas, tonics and broths) to 2 tablespoons (think Bulletproof  C o f f e e more a solid meal). You’ll experiment and learn when to do what. I’ll tell you this, in the morning or at least 1.5 hours before a work out– I’ll do a medium base paired with  high protein. If I do hot yoga early in the morning, I drink TONS of water for an hour then drink equal parts protein and fat. Unless you’re working towards ketosis, I would not recommend an indefinite fat fast.  You need to balance your intake with your activity. I already feel like I’ve said too much–

Flava Faves

I’m on a chai kick these almost springlike (yeah right) days– and while I need to cut back on the caffeine a little since I’ve reintroduced butter coffee to my diet, I still enjoy more tea lattes than I do coffee or espresso. To Make Your Own Chai Do This. You can also experiment with turmeric, vanilla, cinnamon, cardamom, fennel, cayenne, clove, black pepper, raw cacao, essential oils– I could go on and on. Of course the fat you choose and milk will contribute to the flavor profile as well– it’s magical and limitless. Notice what I didn’t add? Sugar. Nough said. Capeesh?

“Okay, great. So how do I make one of these unicorn drinks”

I’m so glad you asked.

Bulletproof Style Coffee with a French Press


16 oz mug or vacuum sealed cup


10 oz just boiling water

3 tablespoons excellent coffee (need to order more of this) ground for a press

10-16 oz (I have one of these but the model I have is no longer in production. Yeah, it’s about 8 years old 😳 Silver lining; I trust the brand as far as durability is concerned)

1 tablespoon GFB (grass fed butter) brought to room temperature

1-2 tablespoons MCT oil 

1 scoop of collagen

1 tablespoon full fat coconut milk from a can at room temperature

1/2 teaspoon vanilla bean paste

what to do:

Heat water in a kettle until whistling. Remove from heat.

Add 3 tablespoons of coffee to an 10-16 oz french press.

Add water.

Agitate water with a small whisk for 30-45 seconds. Let rest then repeat.

set a timer for 4 minutes.

To a blender add the remaining 4 ingredients.

Once the timer goes of push down the handle on the press. Pour the coffee in the blender and place the lid on top. Be sure to keep one hand on the lid when to start the blender.

Blend until a medium tan color and creamy consistency, 30-90 seconds.

Pour in a mug, sip, and come alive 😍👊☕️


Dirty Chai Latte

Your favorite mug (hopefully it’s heftier than a tea cup)

1 shot of espresso from a maker, stovetop percolator, or machine.

1/2 teaspoon homemade chai spice

1 scoop of collagen

1/2 teaspoon vanilla bean paste

1 teaspoon mct oil or coconut oil

small whisk

8 oz hot water


1/3 cup milk of choice steamed, frothed, or made warm and foamy in the microwave

what to do:

Place espresso, chai spice, VBP, and oil in your mug. Whisk rigorously for 30-45 seconds or until well incorporated.

Add hot water and stir with a spoon.

Use spoon to add foam to mug. Pour in the remaining milk.

Top with whipped coconut cream and chai spice.


Nighttime Turmeric Latte

1 teaspoon ground turmeric

1 teaspoon cinnamon

1/2 teaspoon chai spice

1/4 teaspoon adaptogen of your choice

a few dashes freshly ground black pepper

8oz milk of choice

small sauce pan

1 teaspoon coconut oil

1 tablespoon full fat canned coconut milk, at room temperature.

1/2 teaspoon vanilla bean paste

2 oz just boiling water (optional)

more black pepper for serving

what to do:

Place first 6 ingredients in saucepan and simmer on med-low heat for 10 minutes, stirring often.

Remove from heat and whisk in coconut oil, coconut milk, VBP for 30-45 seconds. Add hot water to desired consistency/temperature.

Top with black pepper and relax 💆

Matcha Latte

16 oz mug or vacuum sealed cup

1 teaspoon matcha powder

1 scoop of collagen

1/2 teaspoon chai spice

1 teaspoon- 1 tablespoon MCT oil

small whisk

8 oz just boiling water

1/3 cup milk of choice warmed with a steamer, microwave, or frother.

what to do:

Place first 4 ingredients in mug or cup and top with 2 oz hot water. Whisk.

Add remaining water and MCT oil. Whisk.

Top with foam and add remaining milk.

Sip and feel rejuvenated.

Been working on backing up iphoto today– that’s why I’m updating so late. I still have some editing to so to look for the photo journal to be added this week ❤

#livewhatyoulove #dowhatyoulove #butalsosleep 🙏 #guerillawelfare.

Iced Matcha Chai Latte

16-32 oz jar or shaker with lid

2 teaspoons matcha powder (make sure there isn’t any sugar added. Look for 💯% pure matcha powder!)

1/4 teaspoon vanilla bean paste

1/4 teaspoon chai spice

MCT oil (1 teaspoon- 2 tablespoons)

Collagen powder (1 scoop)

2 oz hot water

6-8 ice cubes

1/2 cup milk of choice

what to do:

Place first 5 ingredients in shaker or jar. Top with 2 oz hot water.

Attach the lid and shake vigorously.

Add ice cubes.

Replace lid and shake.

Add almond milk.

Replace lid and shake.

Pour into a glass and enjoyyyyy.







Happy Wellbein g ❤


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